Ordering My Steps
Last week while I was running along the cliffs I saw a woman
sitting on a bench facing the ocean reading a bible. This is definitely not
common practice in Santa Cruz, so it stuck out. It was really encouraging to
see a fellow believer in this city (other than my fellow “Crusaders” as we are
called by the locals) and to know that God had other people He was using here
and that we weren’t alone in our mission. I continued running until I got to
the lighthouse, where I always turn around and go back to the Peter Pan (it’s
about a three mile round trip – a pretty good run to start off your morning.)
As I was heading home, I couldn’t get this woman off my mind. I really felt God
telling me to stop and talk to her. Now I’m not sure if you know anything about
me, but I’m not the greatest one to take steps of faith and randomly talk to
strangers, even if I feel like God is telling me to. In short, I’m a coward.
But I couldn’t get this woman off my mind, so I figured that I’d pull over and
try to give her some encouragement and maybe ask her how I could be praying for
her and then continue on my run; thereby fulfilling my Christian duties and
alleviating this nagging feeling on my heart.
So I pulled over, and the encounter went something like
this:
“What are you reading?”
“The Bible,” she responded in trepidation, wondering what form
of Santa Cruz crazy had come to interrogate her today.
Laughing I said, “I know. What passage?”
“Oh,” she said relief washing over her face as she
recognized me as a fellow believer. “Matthew 20.”
“Well, I just wanted to stop by and talk because this is a
rare sight in Santa Cruz, and it was really encouraging to see you out here
reading.”
“Oh well thank you. I’m actually the pastor’s daughter at
First Baptist Santa Cruz. Are you from around here?” She asked after apparently
picking up on my southern charm or perhaps reading my NC State shirt.
“No, I’m from North Carolina. I’m actually here on a ten
week mission project with college students all around the country. I just got
in the other day.”
“That’s great! We definitely need more of that around here.
I actually work at Stanford; I’m here visiting family. I’ll definitely be
praying for all of you.”
“Thanks. Is there any way I can be praying for you?”
She went on to describe her current dilemma over whether she
was about to marry the person God wanted her to. I informed her that I would
indeed be praying, and I continued on my run, Christian duties fulfilled and
conscience satisfied, but that wasn’t enough. As I got to the bottom of the
hill that leads up to the cliffs, I felt like God wanted me to go back. Maybe I
should pray with her now; maybe I should ask her a question about being a
believer and working at a university. I didn’t know, but I knew I was supposed
to go back, so with and acquiesced, “Okay, God,” I started my way back of that hill
to the woman on the bench, whose name I had learned was Stephanie. She saw me
coming back and smiled.
“Hey. I hate to bother you again, but I really wanted to ask
you a question about possibly working in a university.”
“Oh, that’s fine. I just finished my reading. Are you
wondering what school to go to for grad school or what master’s program to get
involved in?”
“No, actually I was wondering how easy or difficult you
found it to share your faith and witness to others in an academic setting like
that.” She was a little surprised by my question, but she sat and thought for a
moment, and what proceeded to flow out of her mouth at that moment was some of
the greatest wisdom I had ever received from a stranger (not that I get wisdom
from strangers often, but I digress - this was good stuff). I had wished I had
had a pen and paper with me so I could have taken notes, but what she said went
a little something like this:
“We live in a time where Christians are really afraid to
open their mouths about their faith, and they often use their environment as an
excuse. But God is either God in that setting and that environment, or He’s not
God at all. We can’t be afraid to speak because our faith hasn't been given to
us to make us fearful but free. We have not been given a spirit of timidity but
of power. We are free to be His and used
by Him, and there is freedom in letting God be in control. Every morning I wake
up, and I ask God to order my steps that day in His will not my own, for my
life to be His to use not mine to own. Whether
you work in a university or are a minister, that’s just your assignment to do
His work. You have to realize that, that no matter where God puts you, it is
where He wants to use you. That should be your ultimate purpose while you are
there. And you can’t try and connect the dots of your life on your own because
as soon as you start trying to make plans your way and not His, that is the
moment you are going in the wrong direction. You have to let the Lord guide
your path and connect your dots and order your steps. Your environment doesn’t
matter because your purpose never changes.”
She went on to explain that she was not only an associate
dean at Stanford University, but a minister at her church. (dream job?) We then
began to pray together and over one another. I’m sure the people running by
thought it was an interesting sight, but Santa Cruz is in no shortage of
interesting sights. I then thanked her and continued my run back to the Peter
Pan Motel. She actually flagged me down in her car later to give me her card
and told me to email her sometime about how my summer is going.
The Lord truly blessed me through that conversation. I was
amazed to see how God would reward us for taking even the smallest steps of
faith, but that was one thing I really wanted to work on this summer. It’s the
reason I joined the Outreach team. I really wanted to challenge myself to take
bold steps of faith in the power of His Spirit and just let Him carry me
through. Not only was I rewarded for taking that small step of faith, but what Stephanie
said spoke directly to that. “God is either God in that environment or not God
at all.” God is either God in every aspect of my life leading me through and having
control, or I’m not letting Him be God over my life at all. I have to trust
that He will care for me even when carrying out His word and His will gets scary.
So thank you, God, for speaking to me through Stephanie and teaching me what it
means for you to not only be my Savior but my Lord as well. Please order my
steps for the rest of my days.
Love this post Brian! Great wisdom indeed. God is so good to orchestrate this meeting so that y'all could encourage one another. We pray for you daily!
ReplyDeleteWoah! That's so awesome! I love it when God does things like that! Thanks for posting this, Brian.
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